Some Things Better Left Unspoken

He said to himself
"Yes, this is the right way"
He was so convinced
That it's going to work out
He was ready
So ready
That he sacrificed his biggest, most beautiful memories

He kept thinking
"We're better off this way"
Convincing himself
Non stop
That this probably the best way to continue living
Life that is hollow
With emptiness
And loneliness
While eating up those karma that has been waiting to get him

Sometimes he cried at night
Well, after all he's still human
With feelings
He cried over all the things that happened to him
No one to blame
But himself
Then he fell asleep
Only to find her in his dreams
Every....day
Woke up with sadness
Again and again
So he has to restart every thing from the beginning
He's okay with it
Cause he can't do anything about it

One day she said she have had enough
She's tired of trying
She's done
....
Oh yes indeed he's broken
He thought
"I'm so selfish"
"But I'm the only one I've got"
With anger and sadness overwhelming his mind and heart
He lay himself on the bed
Trying so hard not to lose to himself
Trying so hard not to cry...again
Because he's tired of it

Like I told you
He has his reason
And he's the reason she have had enough of him
He just....
He just didn't have the guts to tell her what his reason was
Yup

He was terrified
He was weak
That if he see her wonderful charm
Her charismatic attitude
Her beautiful face
Her sweet smile
He might lose it
All those walls that he built for months
He just...
He did not want to wreck that
Did you know how hard that is
To build something so strong
So tall and so thick
Only to get destroyed
Because there's this little crack
That with just a very tiny bit of touch
Could tear the whole thing apart?
Can you imagine building that thing again?
From scratch?

He's just...
He love her too much
Yes
After all this time he still love her
That's the only reason
That he chose to do this
He knows exactly what this very person
Capable to do, to him to be exact
Now, the damage is there
He is now deeper in the abyss of misery
That he could not feel anything anymore
He started to question himself
"Why did I do those terrible things?"
Only to find the answer that he was not hoping to see

"Because I love her"